Not being own self lately. Down with no mood at times. Have been keeping it for long. Have his own reasons. It might hurt you. Stupid feelings. Stupid thoughts. Come and go just like that. Don't even know why. Full of question mark in head.
Scared of the past. Scared it might happen. Again, again and again. Once bitten twice shy. Had enough of it. Losing confident. Relationship and you. All because of those past. Nothing to do with others. Don't get it wrong.
Blame own self. Not blaming others. Disliking bad appearance. Didn't think twice. Before doing anything. No use regretting. Trying to ignore it. Just go on. It's hard now. It might be better in the future.
All of this happened before. Mind spinning. Character different. Lose everything. Confident. Trust. Lies all over. Don't want to be alone. How to, when all this is there. Try to get over it slowly please. =(