Sunday, May 31, 2009
Past PresentPast, last time,
Fuck it, past is sucks.
May be happy together not till you've lied and stuff.
I'm pissed with myself for trusting and do almost everything for you.
Regretted i guess. Everything go down the drain. Fuck it!
Almost get angry each and everyday because of your little stupid mistake.
Always, most of the time not in the mood.
Yes, sometimes we're happy together.
And what more, you lied.
Giving chances and time to gain back my trust.
Yeah you did, and again, you repeat it.
Broke up is a never you said.
Love me, is till eternity you said.
That just a word from you.
Broke up, yeah, i'm stupid to use that word. I didn't mean it. I know myself.
I came back to you though. I even cried like a stupid dog.
You pushed me away.
I keep on begging for you to stay, still you wouldn't want to stay.
I remembered you saying that you won't use the word i love you to me anymore.
I remembered you telling me that you fond or maybe love other guy.
I remembered you telling me that you doubt that you'll ever come back to me.
I remembered you telling me that you loved me before.
I remembered all the past we've been through.
Everything. The good and the bad.
You don't even know how i move on.
It's hard to move on if you want to know.
It's really hard to move on.
I depends on friends.
I cried infront of friends when i told them why we broke up.
They try their best to cheer me up when they saw i'm alittle sad.
In the night, i cried in my own fucking room.
Whats the point of crying when i know that you don't/won't love me anymore.
Fuck everything! It's all wasted.
Present, now,
As i go on, i'm happy with myself.
Known alot of new friends.
Going on well.
Friends are all around me.
They occupied my time.
Full of nonsense and laughter.
Doing silly things and stuff.
Talking crap till we laugh out loud.
Spending time on music.
Walking around here and there.
Slacking at somewhere.
I did laugh here and there.
And i did forget my past.
Almost all but some still there.
I keep on laughing with them around.
I found someone i like.
But yah, i did learnt my lesson from the past.
I really did.
Just that i'm scared to get into relationship.
Like what her and i said, all we need is time.
We don't have to rush. There's no need to rush.
I'm happy with myself now.
What do you want?
Let everything out. Hurry.
You have him already, why keep coming to me?
You regret? I don't think so.
For what you even even care and said you sometimes wonder, am i alright or not.
It's hard to forget huh?
Yes, it's hard for me too.
I did try to forget and everything is alright now.
I can do it, so do you.
Hiding to text me.
Scared? Scared he will know.
Told you before, i remember what i've said to you.
Why can't you listen?
Now you're not mine. I can't help you that much if you're down or having some problems.
Turn to him, not me. He is yours now, not me. Like seriously.
Don't break his heart. Think of his feeling. Think about others feeling.
Like those tags on my tagboard.
Saying i miss you so much.
She know who is it. Even i didn't tell her.
I feel bad. She know herself who is it.
She jealous of it.
Yeah she told me. Who won't get jealous of it.
Told you before.
That's what i meant, think of others feeling.
I wouldn't want to hurt others feeling about all this shits.
Please, treasure what you have now.
Here i'm saying sorry if it hurt your feeling.
I don't have a choice. I've been asking my friend how and stuff.
They did ask me to don't ignore. Just get to the point.
I'm ignoring because i know you'll feel sad or even suck.
I know it'll hurt your feeling.
Getting back together is a no way. If you got the thinking of that uh.
You loved him, so just ignore about me.
I'm moving on well with her and friends around me.
Just think of everyone's feeling. They have feelings too.
I hope you realized it. No point regretting.
Just move on with what you got.
Don't worry about me. I'm always fine.
Just take care and be good to him. That's all.
I'm done now.
Labels: Fuck the past. Go on for the future.
